Today i have orthopedics class with Mr Soh again..he is a prestigious hand therapist in Malaysia and currently the head of rehab unit in PPUM. we are such lucky and proud to have him as our lecturer for this subject. but i have screwed it!!!!stupid me had made a BIG mistake when partner with my coursemate doing extensor tendon injury splint.It's been hours from now but i can still feel the embarrassment!!
Our condition is ECRL and ECRB tendon cut injury.It should be static splint protecting the wrist from flexion and keep it extension at 35 degrees but what we made was a Dynamic Splint that suit for EDC patient!!!!oh gosh!!why i never think of the function of ECRL and ECRB then straightway went to make a not-right splint!!!!im so annoyed..annoyed by myself and my partner as well..
The first question he asked, " what is the function of ECRL and ECRB???" i was stunned as i can feel that we had done a wrong splint!!!OMG..:( i answered, "extend the wrist" but ah ming doesnt realize that he answered extend MCP joint!!!oh my god it is totally incorrect!!it is nothing to do with phalanges but we did a splint at all fingers for passive extension!!why am i doing such a stupid mistake!!??i cant forgive myself till now!why didnt i realize that there is nothing concern with the fingers!!GERAMNYA!! the moment being judged in front of all my coursemates is torturing and i felt like being insulted!:X mr soh even blamed us for not studying the fundamental theory..i felt innocent..i can answer the stupid question is just doing the incorrect splint:((
Yet mr soh is such a nice guy..he is so considerate. he kept on consoling us by "praising" us doing a right splint for others..it was a good and nice splint undoubtedly but not fulfill the condition..Damn it..but don't know im too sensitive or what i can feel him dislike me..blaming myself for not studying by heart and not having a strong and firm anatomy basic.. he emphasized that he ought to have a base of anatomical,physiological knowledge as the prerequisite to stand still in this field.Ya he is right but perhaps im not the right one to stand with him.
He ended the class by saying we are doing a big mistake and for him is a big joke..he stressed that he is not embarrassing us. made mistakes in the class is better than made mistakes in the future or being scolded by the patient or medical surgeon..i kept nodding the head but i felt like crying..mempersiasuikan my name and my ancestors..:(( i m lost and my confidence had dropped to zero..can i go further??i think is time for me to wake up to grow and to be serious..i know it is just a phase that i need to go through but it is hard for me..i cant accept i did this silly mistake with a blur blur coursemate..:(speechless..the problem is i had already left a bad impression for Mr Soh.how dare i go PPUM for posting????i need to polish well everything including skills and knowledge before the next meeting with such a powerful and influential lecturer..hope time can heal the "wound" that i had done today:(
