aww..big JOKE to him, big EMBARRASSMENT to me..:(

Today i have orthopedics class with Mr Soh again..he is a prestigious hand therapist in Malaysia and currently the head of rehab unit in PPUM. we are such lucky and proud to have him as our lecturer for this subject. but i have screwed it!!!!stupid me had made a BIG mistake when partner with my coursemate doing extensor tendon injury splint.It's been hours from now but i can still feel the embarrassment!!

Our condition is ECRL and ECRB tendon cut injury.It should be static splint protecting the wrist from flexion and keep it extension at 35 degrees but what we made was a Dynamic Splint that suit for EDC patient!!!!oh gosh!!why i never think of the function of ECRL and ECRB then straightway went to make a not-right splint!!!!im so annoyed..annoyed by myself and my partner as well..

The first question he asked, " what is the function of ECRL and ECRB???" i was stunned as i can feel that we had done a wrong splint!!!OMG..:( i answered, "extend the wrist" but ah ming doesnt realize that he answered extend MCP joint!!!oh my god it is totally incorrect!!it is nothing to do with phalanges but we did a splint at all fingers for passive extension!!why am i doing such a stupid mistake!!??i cant forgive myself till now!why didnt i realize that there is nothing concern with the fingers!!GERAMNYA!! the moment being judged in front of all my coursemates is torturing and i felt like being insulted!:X mr soh even blamed us for not studying the fundamental theory..i felt innocent..i can answer the stupid question is just doing the incorrect splint:((

Yet mr soh is such a nice guy..he is so considerate. he kept on consoling us by "praising" us doing a right splint for others..it was a good and nice splint undoubtedly but not fulfill the condition..Damn it..but don't know im too sensitive or what i can feel him dislike me..blaming myself for not studying by heart and not having a strong and firm anatomy basic.. he emphasized that he ought to have a base of anatomical,physiological knowledge as the prerequisite to stand still in this field.Ya he is right but perhaps im not the right one to stand with him.

He ended the class by saying we are doing a big mistake and for him is a big joke..he stressed that he is not embarrassing us. made mistakes in the class is better than made mistakes in the future or being scolded by the patient or medical surgeon..i kept nodding the head but i felt like crying..mempersiasuikan my name and my ancestors..:(( i m lost and my confidence had dropped to zero..can i go further??i think is time for me to wake up to grow and to be serious..i know it is just a phase that i need to go through but it is hard for me..i cant accept i did this silly mistake with a blur blur coursemate..:(speechless..the problem is i had already left a bad impression for Mr Soh.how dare i go PPUM for posting????i need to polish well everything including skills and knowledge before the next meeting with such a powerful and influential lecturer..hope time can heal the "wound" that i had done today:(

February is coming to an end...

burdened by lotss of assignments,i insisted going home to make myself a great escape:)
i found that i m not tat independent as i think..im so frail..im afraid of loneliness..im afraid of changes..im willing to stay in my own comfort zone..feel so bad..

after two years i only realized that i cant live without my lovely family..i damn love my sweet sweet home and i love PENANG!!!i need lOVe

 get in time to bai tian gong..bobi bobi:)

lotss of oblations..my mom never forget what to do as a tradisional woman. She is such a great lady:)

 While waiting, i captured my mom's ‘masterpiece'..haha..she put alots of endeavour in gardening..*like*

 another one..

 the greatest lady ever..love ya>.<

 the man i spent 20 years together..haha..

 got to spend time with my lil nephew..xoxo

is he complaining"y this lady hug me so tightly..uncomfartable..urghhhh"

 time to go for a movie with ladies and gentleman..teng teng teng teng..

a beautiful scene of my residential area..:)

missing...

beautiful days with my precious family..i really appreciate it..hope the moment like this wont vanish like this..

a marvelous few days 'trip' spent at hometown with marvelous family members..enjoyed my life to the fullest:)

筘紧的思绪~

才刚开课，满脑子好多好多的杂念，苦无对象倾诉，也不懂该怎么说出来。很无奈也很悲哀。这个学期已是第四个学期了，我好想快点毕业，可是对于前路我还是很彷徨，读了两年一直都徘徊在一些理论上。这门学问很注重实践，可是两年了！！我们却没学到什么，我真的很担心，但我们却没有人会积极地为着困境找出路。不知道是我太多心还是大家都太不上进，从来没有人会担心未来的工作。讲师说，我们二十个人谁都不用担心，出去就是铁饭碗。哈哈，我冷笑。全身不禁打了个冷颤。真的可以吗？我们酱的素质，酱的学习态度，酱的责任感，酱的不成熟，真的可以吗？或许他们自认可以吧。但我不敢肯定。我甚至根本没有下定决心走这一行。

刚看到星州新教育副刊的报道，“追梦的人'，对于那些追梦的青年，我总是投于羡慕的眼光，也只能远远地、默默地竖起大拇指赞好，然后再回顾畏鼠畏尾的自己好像除了慨叹也没有别的形容词。我？一想到自己，我真的很觉得好沮丧。可是我不停地告诉自己，千万不可以放弃，还有两年，再挨吧、挨下去吧！另一边厢，好像有另一把声音会在怀疑：这是你要的吗？为什么还要浪费时间？为什么不勇敢的不乖一次？！或许心理太多包袱了，也或许墨守成规就是我的习惯，我真的不敢踏出那‘不乖’的一步。总是问系友：“你们一定会走这一行吗？” 他们的回答由始至终都一样，很果断地告诉我：“是！”。我的心里就会浮现很多噢买嘎的感叹号，惊叹他们怎么那么肯定，惊叹自己怎么还是迷途羔羊？！

虽然说这科是我的第三选择，虽然说我本来读的目的就是为了帮助病患，甚至照顾自己的双亲，可是面对酱‘好'的学习环境、酱‘负责任’的讲师、酱’马来文化‘的生活、酱不溶为一体的系友，我真的可以吗？我可以，怎么不可以呢？一切还是那么美好，世界不会因为我的不满而改变，我只是厌倦了活在自己不喜欢的世界当中。我从小就是家里的荣耀，在吉隆坡读书对妈来说好像是很光荣的事，可是有苦我自己知。当初的美好想象，自己体验后才知是假象。总觉得自己被困在一个框框之中，很想逃脱，却又不知如何逃脱；很想放弃，却又没有勇气。或许我连自己想要什么都不知道才会迷失才会害怕吧。我真的梦想可以到外面的世界开拓自己的视野，放下我的心里包袱，勇敢跨出一步。现在我能做的是只有默默啃下这两年，然后再往外冲吗？好像除了酱，我也不知道该怎样。。

““我好想好想飞，逃离这个疯狂世界，那么多苦，那么多累，那么多莫名的泪水。。如果是你发现了我也别将我挽回。”五月天的歌总是那么贴心，这是为什么我那么爱他们。:)

姐姐的儿子藏了九个月终于来到了这个世界！人生中的美好莫过于如此。 我想他抱着的事对这个世界的好奇，我希望他可以征服这个疯狂世界，活出自己的人生！加油吧，承勋！小姨也会加油的！我想.....怎么办？好像开始想家了。 

承勋，美好人生等着你！勇敢的男儿，小姨等着你长大！：）

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累累的一天

gosh..what a tiring day..today only realize that my stamina is going down..i cant even complete a full running along the tasik titiwangsa..what a shame..
next weekend is Taekwondo SUKEM..our practice for the competition is still in a slow and unproductive process.im so worried about that but i dont what can i do except train hard and endure the extensive training..
but i quite enjoy all these..
going to sleep..im exhausted..esz,college dinner,club dinner,taekwondo....when i heard of meeting, i gona faint..
hope everything is going to be fine..
finally hope that my sis manages to find her ideal job and not being too moody anymore..dajie lil baby grows healthily and happily..papa and mama stay young and fit:)...and last but not least,i can get out of my 'blue'ness from now on!!
晚安，地球人！！