謝謝你 教會我什麼叫堅持

林李時代已去 大勢已不再 人生還是得走下去。
現實就是如此，我們往往抱著滿懷希望，期待著最好的結果，然後卻傷心地擁抱著殘酷。

不想 不願 也不服，可是又能怎樣。我們常說，往正面思考，這是哪個笨蛋發明自我安慰的心理？！哇靠，不開心不就不開心，什麼正能量、安慰的狗屁話就免了⋯⋯正視自己的負面情緒，然後適時的宣洩，罵一罵髒話，其實蠻爽的。對不起，離題⋯⋯

傷心了，失望了，路還是得走。時間不會因爲你的失敗而靜止，地球不會因為你的傷心而末日。面對挑戰，努力過，奮鬥過，跌倒過，那就很好，至少你是笑著接受挑戰。這是我從你身上學會的人生道理。不懈不怠，堅持到底，是你教會我的事。即使你不會再戰，即使歲月不饒人，你的精神永存，每一個被你影響的人都會延續你打不死的精神。是你讓我記住了，什麼是堅持；是你提醒我，人生沒有多少個十年，你會怎麼善用好好的十年。工作上的小挫折，真的算不上什麼，這些歷練帶來的是成長，淚水換來的是經驗，痛苦換來的是磨練。

謝謝你，提醒了我，我是打不死的阿欣。

李宗偉，一代宗師。您的時代已去，但必成佳話，永垂千古。我會學習您的精神，好好為自己的人生負責，加油！

Failure hits me Gao Gao

Well another time of ielts again. And again it sucks!!!! It was my third time and I don't feel alright. I'm sick of taking this stupid IELTs. It's the first time I felt so defeated and indeed lack of motivation to move on. I was once reckoned as a fantastic linguistic person. Language is always my strength. But why come to today, it is my killing factor for not getting my license. I feel so hopeless yet helpless. I know the only way is to keep taking till I pass but my heart is so weak. I hate failure. I hate English demolished me!!😫😫😫 my mom my sis my bf my friends all thought that I can pass easily but it turned out to be not. What happened??? What happened to me? What happened to this little lucky girl? What happened to this little undefeated cockcroach that has strong will and perseverance? I can't think of any reason or excuse. I'm just tired. If I'm not able to go through this, what to mention about studying overseas or further my study in UK or Australia? Who am I? Where should I suppose to be? Or maybe I don't belong to here? A lot of questions and negativity running in my mind. I'm frail I'm weak I'm stupid I'm just a normal silly girl that know nothing. I'm no longer an awesome talented girl that I knew before.

I need to reorganize my thoughts. Shut down and start over again. It's easier to say than do. I'm always paying lip service on my own life. But I ought to do something about it. Something to create a better me. A new me. A different me.

* I am still praying hard and waiting for a miracle to happen... 😪😯😯

慢郎阿光

好久好久没有静静坐下来用文字发泄自己了。不好的是，我错过很多真实的感受，当下的情绪；好的是，人生忙得没有闲下来，无聊的吐两三个字。

刚刚才从ahbi sepang的家回到新加坡的窝，这个男人慢慢开始让我觉得越来越踏实。咳嗽都快咳出肺来晚上都没睡好下午还要带我到处乱晃的他，累得像条死鱼的他，还是信守他的承诺，陪我搭巴士回家。我口里猛说不，但心里甜到漏了。他妈的坚持让我第一次觉得他帅呆了。
或许一直都没人爱，现在的我好想好好的，深深地去爱。不管无常还是明天先到，至少我是狠狠的爱过。感恩生命中出现好多色彩，好多阻碍，让我停下脚步慢慢欣赏沿途风景，他的出现或许也是上天安排，让我慢活，因为他真的太像乌龟啦！！！

我好想好想过着陈绮贞音乐的慵懒，蔡健雅的洒脱，然后和蔡濠光慢活。

因为他，我喜怒无常，EQ 要重修。

因为他，我放下尊严，任性地放纵我自己，然后放肆地让她打点我生活的一切，活像个废人，甜蜜的废人。

哭过闹过幼稚过，我真的只想放慢脚步，细细咀嚼他带给我的小却幸。

我真的很平凡，他更是万绿丛中的小绿叶，但是我的大小事就是可以放心的托付在他身上，我想他就是我的一点红。