脑袋的战争

突然觉得自好虚伪。做了小丑之后，大笑一场之后，闹了一番之后，我发现其实心里真的有一块是忧郁的。

我不是真正的快乐。可是这样做人也未免辛苦了点。

我是豁达的，我告诉我自己，我也希望自己是。面对朋友的失恋我可以侃侃而谈，好像自己很有经验似的，但其实我真的没有。或许我是希望自己有的吧。

吵吵闹闹了一番，我又不自觉地想起他。然后乃带有是一场战争，一方支持我想他，一方支持我打败他。我想说我是希望打败他，可是敌方未免也太强了吧。我需要点时间抗衡。

我可以的，为了朝自己的梦想前进，我会加油。像月亮滢一样，不顾一切拼到底。我想效仿她，我要做到，我会做到，我一定做到！！！！！

我的玩伴

这是我亲手做的两个小可爱，他们叫小尼和小新。看着身上的一针一线，真的有满满的感动。
希望自己不要想太多，勇敢走下去。自己选的路，跪着也要走完。有小新小尼，我要好好加油~干出一番事业。哈哈哈！^^

the lazy song~

today i dont feel like doing anything..
suddenly think of him and again uncontrollably click into his page..
how can i resist?i try not to think i try to escape but my mind kept spinning all about him..i guess i am too free.my brain has too many capacities to load all those nonsense things.i have to put myself in a busy mode in order to forget and keep me away from silly thinking..i have a lot of things to pursue and i am too unproductive..unproductive to the family,society and even to myself..i cant be like that for the rest of my life..i need to achieve something..at least something that can make me die without regrets.i need to be proactive and passionate.maybe tomorrow is the end of the world..who knows..:'(i should let go the the trivial things and do something else that are more important.

jia you!!i cant be lazy anymore..i went for glass exhibition yesterday and Salvador Dali's melting clock told me that time elapsed and cant come back to me..can i aware of this?wake up!!!

these two quotes i found them meaningful.Dali words will become my motivation to keep on moving.

hope for a brand new day..:)

Pipit Wonderful Market 6^^

i love today..it is a happy day with all DIY things around me:D..
satisfied with all the goods i bought!so excited to start sewing after purchasing from pupurin fabric collector..

i <3 today and i do enjoy my day..big thanks to Pipit made my day!!XD
p/s: so happy to meet with my junior prefects there:) they are great and amazing!!established their own business network and i think it is a success!:Dcongrats!

面对它、接受它、解决它、放下它

是我勇敢追求爱吗？
是我勇于表达我的内心感受？
还是其实我是愚蠢...
一切好像都不再那么重要。

该来的始终会来，
虽然尴尬，我还是得面对他。

去吧，去承担你所谓的勇敢。
不要想太多，做你自己！:)

aww..big JOKE to him, big EMBARRASSMENT to me..:(

Today i have orthopedics class with Mr Soh again..he is a prestigious hand therapist in Malaysia and currently the head of rehab unit in PPUM. we are such lucky and proud to have him as our lecturer for this subject. but i have screwed it!!!!stupid me had made a BIG mistake when partner with my coursemate doing extensor tendon injury splint.It's been hours from now but i can still feel the embarrassment!!

Our condition is ECRL and ECRB tendon cut injury.It should be static splint protecting the wrist from flexion and keep it extension at 35 degrees but what we made was a Dynamic Splint that suit for EDC patient!!!!oh gosh!!why i never think of the function of ECRL and ECRB then straightway went to make a not-right splint!!!!im so annoyed..annoyed by myself and my partner as well..

The first question he asked, " what is the function of ECRL and ECRB???" i was stunned as i can feel that we had done a wrong splint!!!OMG..:( i answered, "extend the wrist" but ah ming doesnt realize that he answered extend MCP joint!!!oh my god it is totally incorrect!!it is nothing to do with phalanges but we did a splint at all fingers for passive extension!!why am i doing such a stupid mistake!!??i cant forgive myself till now!why didnt i realize that there is nothing concern with the fingers!!GERAMNYA!! the moment being judged in front of all my coursemates is torturing and i felt like being insulted!:X mr soh even blamed us for not studying the fundamental theory..i felt innocent..i can answer the stupid question is just doing the incorrect splint:((

Yet mr soh is such a nice guy..he is so considerate. he kept on consoling us by "praising" us doing a right splint for others..it was a good and nice splint undoubtedly but not fulfill the condition..Damn it..but don't know im too sensitive or what i can feel him dislike me..blaming myself for not studying by heart and not having a strong and firm anatomy basic.. he emphasized that he ought to have a base of anatomical,physiological knowledge as the prerequisite to stand still in this field.Ya he is right but perhaps im not the right one to stand with him.

He ended the class by saying we are doing a big mistake and for him is a big joke..he stressed that he is not embarrassing us. made mistakes in the class is better than made mistakes in the future or being scolded by the patient or medical surgeon..i kept nodding the head but i felt like crying..mempersiasuikan my name and my ancestors..:(( i m lost and my confidence had dropped to zero..can i go further??i think is time for me to wake up to grow and to be serious..i know it is just a phase that i need to go through but it is hard for me..i cant accept i did this silly mistake with a blur blur coursemate..:(speechless..the problem is i had already left a bad impression for Mr Soh.how dare i go PPUM for posting????i need to polish well everything including skills and knowledge before the next meeting with such a powerful and influential lecturer..hope time can heal the "wound" that i had done today:(

February is coming to an end...

burdened by lotss of assignments,i insisted going home to make myself a great escape:)
i found that i m not tat independent as i think..im so frail..im afraid of loneliness..im afraid of changes..im willing to stay in my own comfort zone..feel so bad..

after two years i only realized that i cant live without my lovely family..i damn love my sweet sweet home and i love PENANG!!!i need lOVe

 get in time to bai tian gong..bobi bobi:)

lotss of oblations..my mom never forget what to do as a tradisional woman. She is such a great lady:)

 While waiting, i captured my mom's ‘masterpiece'..haha..she put alots of endeavour in gardening..*like*

 another one..

 the greatest lady ever..love ya>.<

 the man i spent 20 years together..haha..

 got to spend time with my lil nephew..xoxo

is he complaining"y this lady hug me so tightly..uncomfartable..urghhhh"

 time to go for a movie with ladies and gentleman..teng teng teng teng..

a beautiful scene of my residential area..:)

missing...

beautiful days with my precious family..i really appreciate it..hope the moment like this wont vanish like this..

a marvelous few days 'trip' spent at hometown with marvelous family members..enjoyed my life to the fullest:)