♥送爱之旅♥

从昨晚观赏了一场西班牙flamenco之旅回来也是马不停蹄的去赴了另一场更有意义的旅程。

前一晚不停赶health promotion 的proposal直到一点多才睡觉。一下子五点多就被闹钟叫醒=S。很累可是却兴致勃勃想去赴约了=）六点十五分正，我披着我黑色夹克耸立在guardhouse前充当了五分钟的guard，终于才等到我们亲爱的师兄带我和另一位同仁走到Mcd那搭巴士。哇，天未亮，人未醒，就这样朦朦胧胧中开始了十五分钟的步行，嘻嘻。也好，走路，我才会比较清醒。浩浩荡荡地，四人行出发了！其实我们四人都不认识更甭讲熟，于是就在早晨的各种动物制造的美妙声音陪伴下，到达文良港，再爬上巴士，找了位子，呼隆睡着了。

一路上摇摇晃晃，司机也在各个地方载了不同大专的同伴们。我半梦半醒中听了学长说关于麻风病麻风病村落的一些点滴，要我们做好心理准备去面对这些老人家，因为他们的外形可能有些不太一样。其实前一个晚上，我已经偷偷搜索关于麻风病的一些基本资料。我拍胸口保证自己可以面对！因为职能治疗师将来也会接触同样的病人。我不能退缩也不能害怕，所以勇敢就是我的选择！九点多，终于来到了双溪毛孺sungai buloh leprocy centre.巴士司机一驶入村子里时，满满的花圃映入眼帘。学长说以前被关进这村子时村民们闲来没事就种花也就种出心得。也许心境漂亮，种出来的花朵自然美丽。看着这些花，就想起槟城的妈咪。妈咪也超爱种花的，让她看到这些花，她一定会跟每家的主人要种子吧！哈哈。话说回头，在静思堂里集合分组后，我意外的派到发放物资的那一组，必须沿家挨户地派发我们的爱心。虽然阳光很猛烈，可事情却没有浇熄我们那阳光般的爱心和热心。=) 我们带着真诚的心出发了。我们一行人来自不同大专不同年龄，却有着共同的目标，共同的理念，就是要帮助这群老人。

我以为他们真的跟我们会有很大的差别，但其实我错了，错得离谱。他们比我们更漂亮，至少他们活得漂亮。外表并不能决定一切，他们有着的是一颗真诚的心，认真面对生活，勇敢活下去的决心。沿途上，我发现村子里的木屋都很简陋，小小的空间，只足以容纳一个人，我不能想象在如此的生活环境，公公婆婆也就这样生活了七八十年。可是公公婆婆们都是乐观的一群，他们没有流泪没有哀愁，或许他们背后有很多很辛酸的故事不能一一道来，但从他们真挚的笑容，我看到他们的乐观与积极，与世无争。即使流过了多少眼泪，背负了多少谴责与负担，他们走过来了。世俗的眼光,不谅解让他们看透，也挨了超过半个世纪。慈济的心意却有融化了他们的心，我们可以坦诚相对，没有猜疑，没有犹豫，没有嫉妒，这样的相处真的很舒服。当把物资交给他们手中时，公公婆婆都不约而同露出灿烂暖心的笑容。阳光与笑容，这绝配的组合，让我的周末充满能量。

有个阿公，我们一抵达他的家，当学姐要求照相时，他毫不犹豫答应了。还一个箭步冲到屋里拿了件衬衫套在自己裸露的上半身。阿公真的好可爱，硬要学姐捉最好的角度拍他与她种的琼花，在旁的我们也只有陪笑，可是我心里纳闷，阿公是不是太就没人来陪伴呢？所以特别寂寞，看到我们一行人，我想他是很兴奋吧。阿公操着英语跟我们这帮年轻人谈天，他告诉我们以前的丰功伟绩，如今的儿孙满堂。曾经威风凛凛的空军，拯救无数人的救护车司机，在这个村子显得格格不入，我想他一定经历过了内心无数痛苦的挣扎才找到今日的平静。他热情地招呼，指着在墙上一张张的旧照片不停向我们述说着往事。阿公八十八岁，却有着八岁的赤子之心。我二十一岁，却没有他的乐观开朗，年轻活力。

有个阿嫲，当我们到她家时，她刚从把刹买菜回来，看到我们这班人，她笑得特别让人窝心。鞠了个九十度躬，我把物资交到她手中。阿嫲暖暖的手让我想起从小抚养我长大的两个女人--我的妈妈和舅妈。他们都有着妈妈的味道，妈妈的伟大。阿嫲热情地招呼我们，把我们领到厨房看他买了些什么菜,准备煮些什么菜。突然就这样谈到自己的往事。唯一的孩子未满月就离世，丈夫近几年的离开，与自己家人的疏离，找不回自己的亲生父母，我不禁悲从中来，可是阿嫲却笑着述说着子的一切，如此的豁达，如此的坦然，还反过来安慰我们。阿嫲真的让我上了宝贵的一堂课。阿嫲如今剩下她孤零零的一个人，历经二次世界大战，如此坎坷的生活和波折却没有让她屈服于此现实，没有埋怨，也没有愤世嫉俗。我面对的芝麻绿豆小事又算得了什么。拥有家人朋友的爱却自怨自艾；修读着有用的科系，却经常埋怨教授不够好，大学不够好。为什么总不懂得知足？为什么总是那么贪婪地想要一切？却不知道比起别人，我真的是幸福的小孩。那些不愉快又算得了什么。当阿嫲告诉我只剩他一个人没人理她时，我真的很想抱着阿嫲对她说：“阿嫲一定要加油！”。但我只是说，我们也可以是她的孩子，她并不寂寞。回头想想，我对于家里两老真的太漠不关心了。总是在打理自己的事情，却从来没有多为他们想想或是慰问几句，多说几句就会嫌口臭。阿嫲，谢谢你敲醒了我，是时候反省，行孝。

这趟旅程让我得到了心灵的富足，我汗流浃背，晒得一身古铜色的肌肤，不充足的睡眠，没有完成的功课，这一切都已不太重要。因为我献出满满的爱，也得到了满满的爱。从来都没有觉得自己的生活可以如此充实。星期日不是让你怠惰偷懒的日子，站起来，走出去，你会发现小小的一个动作，可以让别人得到快乐，自己也很开心，何乐而不为？

脑袋的战争

突然觉得自好虚伪。做了小丑之后，大笑一场之后，闹了一番之后，我发现其实心里真的有一块是忧郁的。

我不是真正的快乐。可是这样做人也未免辛苦了点。

我是豁达的，我告诉我自己，我也希望自己是。面对朋友的失恋我可以侃侃而谈，好像自己很有经验似的，但其实我真的没有。或许我是希望自己有的吧。

吵吵闹闹了一番，我又不自觉地想起他。然后乃带有是一场战争，一方支持我想他，一方支持我打败他。我想说我是希望打败他，可是敌方未免也太强了吧。我需要点时间抗衡。

我可以的，为了朝自己的梦想前进，我会加油。像月亮滢一样，不顾一切拼到底。我想效仿她，我要做到，我会做到，我一定做到！！！！！

我的玩伴

这是我亲手做的两个小可爱，他们叫小尼和小新。看着身上的一针一线，真的有满满的感动。
希望自己不要想太多，勇敢走下去。自己选的路，跪着也要走完。有小新小尼，我要好好加油~干出一番事业。哈哈哈！^^

the lazy song~

today i dont feel like doing anything..
suddenly think of him and again uncontrollably click into his page..
how can i resist?i try not to think i try to escape but my mind kept spinning all about him..i guess i am too free.my brain has too many capacities to load all those nonsense things.i have to put myself in a busy mode in order to forget and keep me away from silly thinking..i have a lot of things to pursue and i am too unproductive..unproductive to the family,society and even to myself..i cant be like that for the rest of my life..i need to achieve something..at least something that can make me die without regrets.i need to be proactive and passionate.maybe tomorrow is the end of the world..who knows..:'(i should let go the the trivial things and do something else that are more important.

jia you!!i cant be lazy anymore..i went for glass exhibition yesterday and Salvador Dali's melting clock told me that time elapsed and cant come back to me..can i aware of this?wake up!!!

these two quotes i found them meaningful.Dali words will become my motivation to keep on moving.

hope for a brand new day..:)

Pipit Wonderful Market 6^^

i love today..it is a happy day with all DIY things around me:D..
satisfied with all the goods i bought!so excited to start sewing after purchasing from pupurin fabric collector..

i <3 today and i do enjoy my day..big thanks to Pipit made my day!!XD
p/s: so happy to meet with my junior prefects there:) they are great and amazing!!established their own business network and i think it is a success!:Dcongrats!

面对它、接受它、解决它、放下它

是我勇敢追求爱吗？
是我勇于表达我的内心感受？
还是其实我是愚蠢...
一切好像都不再那么重要。

该来的始终会来，
虽然尴尬，我还是得面对他。

去吧，去承担你所谓的勇敢。
不要想太多，做你自己！:)

aww..big JOKE to him, big EMBARRASSMENT to me..:(

Today i have orthopedics class with Mr Soh again..he is a prestigious hand therapist in Malaysia and currently the head of rehab unit in PPUM. we are such lucky and proud to have him as our lecturer for this subject. but i have screwed it!!!!stupid me had made a BIG mistake when partner with my coursemate doing extensor tendon injury splint.It's been hours from now but i can still feel the embarrassment!!

Our condition is ECRL and ECRB tendon cut injury.It should be static splint protecting the wrist from flexion and keep it extension at 35 degrees but what we made was a Dynamic Splint that suit for EDC patient!!!!oh gosh!!why i never think of the function of ECRL and ECRB then straightway went to make a not-right splint!!!!im so annoyed..annoyed by myself and my partner as well..

The first question he asked, " what is the function of ECRL and ECRB???" i was stunned as i can feel that we had done a wrong splint!!!OMG..:( i answered, "extend the wrist" but ah ming doesnt realize that he answered extend MCP joint!!!oh my god it is totally incorrect!!it is nothing to do with phalanges but we did a splint at all fingers for passive extension!!why am i doing such a stupid mistake!!??i cant forgive myself till now!why didnt i realize that there is nothing concern with the fingers!!GERAMNYA!! the moment being judged in front of all my coursemates is torturing and i felt like being insulted!:X mr soh even blamed us for not studying the fundamental theory..i felt innocent..i can answer the stupid question is just doing the incorrect splint:((

Yet mr soh is such a nice guy..he is so considerate. he kept on consoling us by "praising" us doing a right splint for others..it was a good and nice splint undoubtedly but not fulfill the condition..Damn it..but don't know im too sensitive or what i can feel him dislike me..blaming myself for not studying by heart and not having a strong and firm anatomy basic.. he emphasized that he ought to have a base of anatomical,physiological knowledge as the prerequisite to stand still in this field.Ya he is right but perhaps im not the right one to stand with him.

He ended the class by saying we are doing a big mistake and for him is a big joke..he stressed that he is not embarrassing us. made mistakes in the class is better than made mistakes in the future or being scolded by the patient or medical surgeon..i kept nodding the head but i felt like crying..mempersiasuikan my name and my ancestors..:(( i m lost and my confidence had dropped to zero..can i go further??i think is time for me to wake up to grow and to be serious..i know it is just a phase that i need to go through but it is hard for me..i cant accept i did this silly mistake with a blur blur coursemate..:(speechless..the problem is i had already left a bad impression for Mr Soh.how dare i go PPUM for posting????i need to polish well everything including skills and knowledge before the next meeting with such a powerful and influential lecturer..hope time can heal the "wound" that i had done today:(